June 22, 2023, 5:20 p.m. (10:20 p.m. body time)
We’re at JFK in New York after an uneventful flight from
London. Blessedly, Ann was discharged yesterday from the hospital in Exeter in
time for us to drive to London and have a late dinner at the airport hotel.
Also, thankfully, there was no drama in returning the car, other than some
shaming about the scratches I’d put on the new car’s wheel covers (we’ll see
how that plays out with the “zero deductible” insurance I’d purchased).
From the martyrdom in Salisbury in 1556 (a site we missed). |
So, what stands out from these past two weeks of family
pilgrimage? Certain moments were especially meaningful: finding a McLagan
tombstone at Old Scone Cemetery outside Perth; finding a Gibson tombstone at
Govan Old Church in Glasgow; dining in the jail where Ann’s Owen ancestor was
imprisoned for being a Quaker; visiting churches where other ancestors were
baptized, married, and buried. As an exercise in family connectedness, standing
in these places mattered. Thirty or 40 years ago, when my mother was spending
so much of her time researching and recording our family’s history, I wasn’t
mature enough to transcend my own story and appreciate my connections with the
people from whom I’d come. There were names I knew, and some of those names
came with stories my mother told – a great-great-grandmother, Nellie Josephine
Crane Reading, who threw a washtub of water on a cougar in the Utah mountains;
another great-great-grandmother, Mary Beaufort Lively Brundage, who threw her
first suitor’s engagement ring down the privy when he went on a trip without
telling her. But being in the places from which family members emigrated helped
me ask better questions about my history and theirs: What made them uproot
their lives, and leave behind the known and familiar, and take the huge risk to
start new lives in places they could barely imagine? And along with that: What
would I have done then, and what risks would I be willing to take now to
provide a better life for those who follow me?
Then, of course, there’s the spiritual pilgrimage that’s
been running alongside the path of family history. Where and how has God shown
up over these past two weeks (and in the months of preparation beforehand)?
Among the things I’d missed in my mother’s stories was the extent to which my
ancestors’ journeys were journeys of faith. The converging and diverging
streams of British religious history were raging rivers for the individuals who
struggled to navigate them day to day. John Spicer and Thomas Spicer being
burned at the stake during Bloody Mary’s Protestant purge – a mason and a
laborer, respectively, willing to die rather than recant their faith – may be
the most dramatic examples. But I think about Ann’s Quaker ancestor Robert Owen
being imprisoned in Wales before he and his family helped settle Pennsylvania …
or my Brundage and Hubbard ancestors leaving as part of the Puritan exodus
during the Stuarts’ strident imposition of Anglicanism … or my Reading and
Brown ancestors finding spiritual renewal with the Latter-Day Saints and
heading to the Promised Land in the Utah desert. For each, the presence of God
in their lives charted their course.
At the cathedral in Glasgow, we heard a sermon from the
diocesan staff member for mission, whose job boils down to working with even
very small congregations to identify the thing about which they’re most
passionate, and then helping them discern how to live out that mission in their
own contexts. It’s a great example of the truth in my family’s emigration stories,
too – that trusting in the call and power of God is what it takes to accomplish
astonishing things. We – or at least I – tend to intellectualize that truth too
readily, reticent to let the Spirit act through us to change our lives and the
lives of those around us. Remember, even while the Mormons were a small and
mistrusted band, driven out of one American community after another, they were
sending missionaries to England and filling thousands there with the reality of
God’s Spirit empowering their lives. Too often, I think, we let ourselves play
small as Jesus’ followers called to bring the Spirit to life in the world. But
the stories of those who’ve gone before – and the stories of those who hear and
heed the call in unlikely settings today – remind us that God has so much more
in mind for us than simply heavenly rest.